Phony-baloney disguised

Just like two faced people the fakers, liars and the pretenders can also wear disguises. The people also move through life insincere and artificial. Today I’m talking about the kind that put on a disguise to fit in and cover the genuine person they are and deny.

The hiders who wear clothes they hate or act contrary to their personality are often desperate or damaged. They can become very dangerous very quickly if provoked or nudged appropriately and like Two-faced people, the disguised can become nemesis or enemies, villains even if they aren’t already.

Wearing the cloak of deception can be exhausting. This behavior can be as innocent as wanting to fit in, to a deep seeded need to hide their true nature. The quiet nice guy who kept to himself, was never a suspect for Serial killing until he’s caught. The reasons for pretending to be someone your not is vast.

Base reasons for pretending

Shame
Desire
Greed
Fear
Broken Psyche

Examples of why people might pretend to be someone they’re not

Abused as a child or adult
Embarrassed about their interests
Want to fit in to a new group
Want a promotion or new job
Have a bad habit that is illegal or borderline illegal
Ashamed of sexual inclination
Afraid of rejection
Desire for revenge
Double agents
Being forced to be someone they’re not
Anyone with a secret

Often people who are pretending are just trying to get through the day. Pretending to be happy serving coffee to the ass-hat that claims it was made wrong three times just for laughs. While others pretend to be dumb so their friends don’t pick on them. So what happens when the façade starts to crumble or peel away?

Sasha closed her office door and looked at the paper name plaque in her hand. It had been taped over her name on the door. “Ice Queen”.
The walk through the open office area was eerily like a walk of shame. She turned on her monitor and clenched her fists.
“Okay.” She thought a moment how to approach this. It hurt her feelings and sparked her fury. The image of a crown made of ice with tiny icicles was her new wallpaper.  If she went to the uppers it would look pathetic and would only get worse. She would talk to Scott and choose the high road. She always did.
“Oh how I’d love a little payback.” What she was most worried about was anyone at the office finding out the truth behind her standoffish behavior when it came to men. She jumped at the knock at the door.
“It’s open.” She called and stared at the screen.
“Hey can we talk?” Scott closed the door behind him.
“I think you’ve done enough of that already don’t you?” So much for the high road.
“I didn’t tell anyone that you bailed on me.” Scott sighed and rubbed his eyes with one hand. “Look Sasha I like you, I want to…” He threw his head back and then looked at her. “You’re smart, talented and beautiful you can’t blame me for trying. I’m going to warn you, I don’t give up easily.”
Everything Scott said was with purpose. The order of those complements was not a slip.
“Maybe you should save yourself the trouble. I’m not going to date you or sleep with you Scott.” She pointed at the crumpled ice queen paper in her recycle bin. “I’m not feeding that gossip beast.”
“I don’t get it, you’re all confident and distant, then you’re shy and sexy then bam.” He hit the desktop with his hand making her jump. “back to distant.”
“Don’t you mean frigid or cold?” She crossed her arms.
The urge to run home and cry was almost winning.
“Your acting strange lately Sasha.”
The truth was she was having trouble maintaining her aloofness, her casual-self at the office.  Then to make it worse Baylor threw her for a loop and she wasn’t hiding as well as she normally did.
She looked at Scott. He was attractive but he was acting strange too. Or was he? She tilted her head.  Was she not seeing others clearly through her own disguise?
“Sorry Scott it’s not going to happen. If you need help with any other projects we can work on them here. Now if you’ll excuse me.” She opened her desk drawer. “The ice queen has work to do.” The last words came out quietly. The drawer was lined with plastic and filled with ice.
Scott stood to leave. “But Sasha I think-”
She slammed the drawer shut. “Get out of my office Scott.”
“Lunch. I’ll take you to lunch. We can talk then.” He slipped out before she could say no in person.
She glared at the door. “Didn’t tell anyone my royal ice queen ass.” She closed her eyes and the vision of Cal punching Baylor came to mind calming her temper.

Two pretenders with different agendas. One is two-faced, with a personal investment and the other wearing a failing disguise. Sasha’s carefully crafted persona is falling apart. How long until she realizes the costume doesn’t fit well and it’s making her miserable?

Not all fakers are bad, not all of them are good. Most fall somewhere in-between. I’m giving Sasha a hard time because it’s part of her journey. She has to fall before she can get up and dust of the fake present and her shadowed past.

My advice about phony baloney disguises.
Paint that false smile for the spotlight and let it fall behind the curtain. Show the truth in people by the lies they present daily. Tiny or huge, take a chance and let a character develop a veil or tear it off.

-Sheryl

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Tiny

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19 thoughts on “Phony-baloney disguised

  1. Living with a mask seems to be the theme for today. I had a conversation with someone about it this morning.

    So, she was abused. That would do it. Baylor is a person, right? I wasn’t sure with the “a” in front of it. Great story.

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      1. Exciting,may I ask what your new job Is? I’m retired of sorts and I’m going to blog about a personal experience as soon as I can get back on my comp. I find I have trouble with the tablet as it won’t access what I require so big arch for that,

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        1. Inside sales for a Martial Arts supply company(No I don’t know any MA). I was “downsized” back in April from a music store I had worked at for 13 years(Don’t play a single instrument). I’m liking the new job, it’s a lot of new things to learn. I like learning new things so it’s all good.

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          1. Have no idea what an MA is, but I’m happy for you, since you love learning, that’s awesome. I’m sorry for the unexpected Ness of the change, I had a wp injury and haven’t been able to work since, so it’s been a long road but I’m happy that I’ve been able to write, it’s a godsend for me. I really love your posts, they are intuitive and heartwarming since I imagine you don’t have a great deal of time but your generosity is enequalled. That is a given.

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            1. MA= Martial Arts. And yes time is a crunch for me lately. I try to write a few at a time and save them for the days I start early. It’s partly why my posts more often than not, work the word of the day in, instead of the other way around.

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        1. When you meet new people they and you put on your best, until it’s discovered what works and what doesn’t in the social structure at work. A lot of People have said work-me and home-me are two different people.

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          1. Exactly now I understand where you were going with this. Not to mention, it’s true of so many. In reality, some business well most business runs on reputation so you have to put your best foot forward. I worked for the C OF C and could not speak to any personal political views regarding treatment of any side, or treatment of women, or natives. My boss would literally jump from her chair to intervene when disparaging remarks were made on these subjects, but I was professional and I did take my stand, but in ways no one could react to but which still made the point. She often know
            Laughed because no one could say a word about how I handled the situation but the men mostly were left with their mouths gaping and the women or wives stood proudly when they saw how I’d handled the situation and held themselves proudly and erect at my response. SO THERE ARE MOMENTS WHEN IT IS NECESSARY BUT THERE ARE WAYS AROUND IT. SMILES DELIGHTEDLY oops sorry caps, on tablet it doesn’t work as efficiently as my comp, that other I still don’t know my way around yet, more likely the case.

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  2. I almost missed this post because of how similar it seemed to your previous one!

    On a serious note, my first main character’s arc was about this. I never finished his novel, but I always think of going back to it. The amount of psychological conflict that this kind of character can have is very engaging, I just don’t think I was a good enough writer back then to write something so deep. But good memories nonetheless!

    Keep up the good work!

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  3. I think Sasha should get a new place to work, lol. But seriously, you have a depth of understanding when it comes to people that is admirable. This post speaks to many who are here in treatment for various addictions as well believe it or not. Many of us have created who we thought we should be to cover up who we are…self-medicating polishes of the job.

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